Friend Rolodex
I spent a good portion of my evening wanting to talk to someone, but who? There are so many friends that I would love to sit down and have hour long chats with, so why did I then proceed to not call anyone? I don’t know but I have developed a theory on why we dont call people that often.
Selfishly, I think we often have an agenda on what we want to talk about before we call someone and that is when we start the thumb scrolling through our phone books to find that certain person that would care the most about what we want to talk about, would anyone agree with me here? This method works fine when it is strictly fun stuff to talk about or plan for future events or you have to find an answer to important questions like what is the name of that song we would sing we loved in 7th grade that talked yada yada yada. The real problem is when you want to talk about something “heavy” instead of “light” because like with beer most people will drink bud light, miller light, coors light etc…however it usually takes a special person to kick back that bud heavy with you at the end of the night.
I would like him to show up and bust in my front door at 9:00 at night, like he did tonight!
Insomnia
in somnia |inˈsämnēə| noun
habitual sleeplessness; inability to sleep.
Use it in a sentence you say…..” My insomnia is often attributed to, 1 snoring boyfriend and 2 snoring dogs.”
Beyond the very extreme of fatigue and distress, we may find amounts of ease and power we never dreamed ourselves to own; sources of strength never taxed at all because we never push through the obstruction. ~William James
This is a simple picture to describe my life currently, I am not posting this to get sympathy or to be rude to those who have all of these things. I just want to say that I am happy to be where I am in life right now, and wish that others could see that too! Sure I am one of the few of my friends that have not embarked down this historical path, but whats the big deal?
My whole life I was pushed to be the best by my parents, friends, and teachers to be smart, independent, and resilient. These qualities have gotten me to “where” I am today, however somewhere between the ages of 22-25 the “where” has taken on this new perceived position of pity from the same people?
Daily I am asked the single most dreadful question “when are you going to get married”? My response is always the same, “Not for a while, I am in no hurry”, and just after I say this is when I get the same head tilted to the side, sad puppy dog eyed response of “you’ll get ‘there’ soon”, followed by a warm gestured side smile intended to mean “I am sorry”. Hmm…. ”there” soon?!?! Last I checked I was still happy being “where” I was instead of getting “there”. Being married does not define me, my self worth, or my happiness!!! I am so happy LIVING my life, experiencing new things, treating my patients, buying something with out asking permission, or not cooking dinner if I don’t want to!
For those that have found that special someone gotten married, bought a house, and starting having children let me first say I am so happy for you! This is wonderful and you have so many blessings in your lives. I will have all of these things in time too, just please do not hold me to the same social rubric and pity me because I am not “there” rather embrace that I am “where” I am suppose to be, happy and content!
I need a little Jack in my life…
…but for once not the drink! I just signed my legs over to be slaves for the next 3 months for the Oak Barrel Half Marathon. Too bad Lynchburg is a “dry” county…
